Lately we hear so much about this that it's easy to think that if we're feeling depressed there is something wrong with us. While it's true that God doesn't want us to live this way, it's also true that depression is NOT a sin. Of course, we may have made some bad decisions in the past that led us away from God, the results of which we're still feeling and experiencing today, but this doesn't mean we are far away from Him now.
For me it was being with an abusive ex then working in the porn and Tarot industries. While these were dumb decisions on my part, I know for a fact God has forgiven me. This doesn't mean that I'm not feeling depressed now though. In fact, I am. I haven't asked to be this way and I have asked God for His healing, but sometimes we must understand that the way God works is not the way we expect Him to work. I believe that sometimes God chooses to bring us through a season in our lives to help us grow in Him.
What do I mean by this?
Well, what you choose to do when you're feeling depressed often dictates its outcome. Now I'm not saying that you shouldn't get extra rest and just practice stillness. What I am saying is that also during that time you need to pray and read your Bible more even though you might not feel like doing so.
These are words that I'm preaching to myself right now. I'm hoping that by sharing these things with you I can encourage us both to hang in there. Obviously there's a lot of craziness in our world today. It's bound to effect each and every one of us and it's bound to do so differently since no two people are the same. However, we must trust a few things:
- God is there for us.
- God will bring us triumphantly through to the other side.
- God will grow us in Him as we go through this process.
So, we just need to hang in there and keep the faith. Don't let anyone tell you that because you're feeling depressed or anxious you're straying away from God. Instead, stay the course, stay strong and watch as God brings you through this into a deeper relationship with Him. This is what I'm trusting for myself today and I pray that you'll trust it for yourself as well.