While I've had PTSD and CPTSD for essentially my entire life, I've recently been told that I am also Bipolar. None of this is new to me besides the fact that I'm choosing not to run (rebel) and avoid it now. Instead, I'm choosing to meet it head on and deal with this "monster" so I can be free to live my life. Of course, I should expect good and bad days along the way but I honestly wish that I didn't crash so hard sometimes.
Last week I had the audacity to think I could be mad at God. I even walked into the church with a chip on my shoulder that lasted a whole 30 minutes before God bopped me. I got things straightened out with Him and was feeling good again until today.
Part of this I brought on myself: Working through the PTSD workbook my therapist has me working on
Part of this wasn't my fault at all: My daughter's depression wears off on me horribly at times
For some reason I just crashed and burned today. Now I'm trying to level out again so I'll spend tonight doing some self care. I just wish that my life wasn't such a roller coaster but God has me, even when I doubt it (but that's another topic entirely).
Nevertheless, I'm just wondering: Does anyone else have this roller coaster ride? Please tell me I'm not alone here (lol)
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