Out of the Weeds Beauty Arises


I'm noticing that things really are changing in my life. When I stop to think about these changes I know it's because I've made a conscious decision to invest in myself.

For the longest time, I'd lost myself. I didn't really think of it this way. Instead, I knew I needed a job to keep my son and me afloat. I did what I needed to make this happen - including becoming a workaholic.

Today I look back on all the years I spent worrying about things that really didn't even matter much in the grand scheme of things. Many of these things weren't even part of who I truly am. They were things that I was forcing myself to be in order to fit into a certain mold. 

The Many Seasons of Life

As I've mentioned before on this blog there are seasons to life. This is something I truly believe. 

When I look back on where I've been and what I've come through I can see these seasons in my own life. In fact, I was thinking about these changing seasons just this morning.

During the time that I worked full-time as a freelance writer, I had two things that I dealt with. These are things that I've noticed have changed in my life now that I no longer have to work so much. They are:
  • I use to hate journaling. Now that I look back on it I think it's because I was already spending so much of my time writing for other people that writing for myself was the last thing I wanted to do. Now that I don't write nearly as much as I use to, journaling has become an important part of my self-care.
  • I never took the time to invest in myself and discover the real me. Instead, I was letting myself be swallowed up by work and trying to survive. It's no wonder that I was always feeling anxious and depressed.

The Lessons Learned

I've learned that I really need to invest in myself because nobody (other than God) is going to do it for me. Sometimes this is a tough thing to do but I know that I'm worth it and you are too. I encourage you to spend some time each day alone with God taking care of yourself before you step out to take care of others.

Until next time, Stay strong,
~ Bre