Motivation. It's a weird thing. I don't know where it comes from or why it leaves, but it's something I need and God so graciously provides.

Lately, I've really been struggling. I don't know whether it's the weather or something else but I just don't feel very motivated to do anything. This weekend has especially been a struggle. I really didn't want to do anything at all, let alone get out of bed.

Fortunately, I start therapy again tomorrow. This is the first time I've been in therapy for at least 6 months. I'm really hoping that it'll work because I have a lot of things I want to do, just no motivation to do any of them.

As I already mentioned, I'm planning on reworking this blog and some of the other stuff I have going on online. This blog is going to continue to be about my personal journey. I feel that some of you expect this when you arrive here, so I'm not going to change it. However, I do have another blog where I'll be creating posts about addiction. I also plan to sell digital files (e.g., worksheets, pictures, adult coloring pages) that will help with addiction. My goal is to use my education and experiences throughout the years to help those in need. Many of the items I'm creating will also be beneficial for those who are struggling with other mental health issues, too.

I'm anxious to get all of this up and running, but I wonder if I'm running ahead of God and he just wants me to sit and chill for a bit. After all, He's still showing me how things from my past are about to be used in a big way here. I just want to get started with everything because I'm excited to see how it'll all work out. Nevertheless, I know that it's not mine, it's His and without Him, it won't work out.

This is such an important message to remember regarding everything we do in life. As Christians, we're called to live a life of full surrender. It's not always easy, but it's always worth it. So, if you're struggling with things today, I encourage you to hang in there. God is about to do something big in your life if you only listen and obey. How do I know? Because I'm seeing Him do it in mine.

Until next time,

Stay strong,